"I miss the sound of your voice,
I miss the rush of your skin,
I miss the still of the silence
as you breathe out what I breathe in..."
I miss her so much.. May God guide me with this feeling..
Friday, August 21, 2009
I love her..
"I miss the sound of your voice,
I miss the rush of your skin,
I miss the still of the silence
as you breathe out what I breathe in..."
I miss her so much.. May God guide me with this feeling..
What is Love?
What is love? Some may say that love is an indefinable feeling felt by a person towards another person. Some may say that love sucks because you only get hurt when you love.
But what do really love means?
For me, love has a broad meaning and that meaning depends on the person that is capable of feeling that. I’ve experienced this kind of emotion and it’s very new to me because out of 17 years living in this world, I’ve experienced it at the age of 16, it all started last year and the specific date was December 25, 2008. And until now, I still love that girl but I guess, I’m not that worthy enough for her. If you love that person, even though that she/he committed so many mistakes you still get the courage to accept her/him because “Love conquers all and love bears all the pain”. But I guess, she doesn’t really love me after all. But I should accept it like a man. What’s important is that I loved her, and even though I committed so many mistakes, I’ve tried to fix it and prove to her that I’m sorry. Well, all I can say is that, It’s my lost because I can’t replace her in my heart but I’d still believe with this quote, “I can love other people but she can’t be loved by her new as much as I loved her before..”. Because I do believe that no one can match up my love for her, risking is the most expressive way one telling that person that you loved her/him, and I’m afraid to risk before, but when I met her, I’d risk all I had and that’s my mistake, I gave all I got and now, there’s nothing left to me but nothing.
Get it? Well, that’s life, I should grow up and continue the path that I chose to take, and I do believe that God is walking one step beside me. So now, I’m currently struggling with this pain I’m bearing inside but I know that I can do it, I will, I can, I should.
P.S. I hope there’s someone out there who’s capable of loving me for who I am, and what I’m capable of doing only for her.
Hey, drop by some comments and also your stories about your life and how do feel about this topic. (^_^) Take Care and God Bless!
But what do really love means?
For me, love has a broad meaning and that meaning depends on the person that is capable of feeling that. I’ve experienced this kind of emotion and it’s very new to me because out of 17 years living in this world, I’ve experienced it at the age of 16, it all started last year and the specific date was December 25, 2008. And until now, I still love that girl but I guess, I’m not that worthy enough for her. If you love that person, even though that she/he committed so many mistakes you still get the courage to accept her/him because “Love conquers all and love bears all the pain”. But I guess, she doesn’t really love me after all. But I should accept it like a man. What’s important is that I loved her, and even though I committed so many mistakes, I’ve tried to fix it and prove to her that I’m sorry. Well, all I can say is that, It’s my lost because I can’t replace her in my heart but I’d still believe with this quote, “I can love other people but she can’t be loved by her new as much as I loved her before..”. Because I do believe that no one can match up my love for her, risking is the most expressive way one telling that person that you loved her/him, and I’m afraid to risk before, but when I met her, I’d risk all I had and that’s my mistake, I gave all I got and now, there’s nothing left to me but nothing.
Get it? Well, that’s life, I should grow up and continue the path that I chose to take, and I do believe that God is walking one step beside me. So now, I’m currently struggling with this pain I’m bearing inside but I know that I can do it, I will, I can, I should.
P.S. I hope there’s someone out there who’s capable of loving me for who I am, and what I’m capable of doing only for her.
Hey, drop by some comments and also your stories about your life and how do feel about this topic. (^_^) Take Care and God Bless!
How it all started (One last message) Chapter 5
CHAPTER FIVE: Days w/out her…until…
After the broke up, it made my days morbidly sad.
So many melancholic moments I have experienced after that incident, I cried and cried, so many sleepless nights. I just can’t get over with that feeling and it sucks! I’ve lost my appetite and the urge to go to school. The inspired feeling was gone and pain reigned throughout my entire mind. My mind was full of cobwebs and questions, I don’t know the reason on why she broke up with me, because on February 14, we were so happy that time and 3 days later after that day, she broke up with me and left me with no definite reason.
Days passed by, I’m trying to be fine, we still have a communication, I still manage to text her almost everyday, I just want know the reason on why she did that to me. She said that she has a deep reason on why she needs to do that, but that’s unfair, isn’t it? Because as a partner, she should open it to me, but I can’t force her so I’d stop for a while but after few days, the routine will be repeated, asking process will be repeated and you can’t blame me because it boggles my mind a lot each and everyday I wake up.
March 3, 2009, I inviter her to go out, it should be our 2nd monthsary so I thought that I could invite her just to hang out with me. The venue was on People’s Park, we talked about our lives, and we also mentioned about the broke up incident. I was happy but then again, I was kinda sad because I miss her a lot, so much! I just want to be with her each and everyday, I’m contented with her, being with her means a lot to me and no one can replace the happiness that she gives to me each and every time she’s with me. We ended our conversation at around nine o’clock in the evening. Well, I was contented at that day because even though that we broke up, still I can see her and be with her, sometimes…I guess…
March 17, 2009, exactly 1 month after our broke up, I’m still sad, I can’t do the chores that I am doing before; still I’m very affected with that. And every time I hear the songs of FM Static especially the song entitled, “Tonight”, all that is in my mind was the moment we’re together at Shrine Hills Matina, it was around seven o’clock and we were lying on the field, staring at the stars on the sky, as we laugh together, as I spooked her out just for her to hug me, it was the best feeling I’ve ever felt in my whole life.
……………………………………………………2 Days later………………
March 19, 2009, that was late at night at around eight o’clock in the evening and we were texting. We reached the topic where we talked about our broke up, and it was kinda weird but hey! She said to me these words, “Ar pede makigbalik?” I was so shocked, my ears were plugged out, my adrenaline rushed out, I’ve felt happiness, and I replied to her, “Sure jud kah?”. She said that she was sure, and what else will I react with that? I opted to believe with that and I said to her, “Ok..=)”... We tackled about our relationship and I’ve found out that she broke up with me and it was all because of her parents. But I respected that because she should really obey her parents. Well, past is past and I accepted her to come back to me because she’s the only one that could make me happy. And even she didn’t come back to me at that time…….
I’d still wait for her until she comes back to me… because I know no matter what happen, she’s all mine and I’m all hers. This heart of mine belongs to her.
After the broke up, it made my days morbidly sad.
So many melancholic moments I have experienced after that incident, I cried and cried, so many sleepless nights. I just can’t get over with that feeling and it sucks! I’ve lost my appetite and the urge to go to school. The inspired feeling was gone and pain reigned throughout my entire mind. My mind was full of cobwebs and questions, I don’t know the reason on why she broke up with me, because on February 14, we were so happy that time and 3 days later after that day, she broke up with me and left me with no definite reason.
Days passed by, I’m trying to be fine, we still have a communication, I still manage to text her almost everyday, I just want know the reason on why she did that to me. She said that she has a deep reason on why she needs to do that, but that’s unfair, isn’t it? Because as a partner, she should open it to me, but I can’t force her so I’d stop for a while but after few days, the routine will be repeated, asking process will be repeated and you can’t blame me because it boggles my mind a lot each and everyday I wake up.
March 3, 2009, I inviter her to go out, it should be our 2nd monthsary so I thought that I could invite her just to hang out with me. The venue was on People’s Park, we talked about our lives, and we also mentioned about the broke up incident. I was happy but then again, I was kinda sad because I miss her a lot, so much! I just want to be with her each and everyday, I’m contented with her, being with her means a lot to me and no one can replace the happiness that she gives to me each and every time she’s with me. We ended our conversation at around nine o’clock in the evening. Well, I was contented at that day because even though that we broke up, still I can see her and be with her, sometimes…I guess…
March 17, 2009, exactly 1 month after our broke up, I’m still sad, I can’t do the chores that I am doing before; still I’m very affected with that. And every time I hear the songs of FM Static especially the song entitled, “Tonight”, all that is in my mind was the moment we’re together at Shrine Hills Matina, it was around seven o’clock and we were lying on the field, staring at the stars on the sky, as we laugh together, as I spooked her out just for her to hug me, it was the best feeling I’ve ever felt in my whole life.
……………………………………………………2 Days later………………
March 19, 2009, that was late at night at around eight o’clock in the evening and we were texting. We reached the topic where we talked about our broke up, and it was kinda weird but hey! She said to me these words, “Ar pede makigbalik?” I was so shocked, my ears were plugged out, my adrenaline rushed out, I’ve felt happiness, and I replied to her, “Sure jud kah?”. She said that she was sure, and what else will I react with that? I opted to believe with that and I said to her, “Ok..=)”... We tackled about our relationship and I’ve found out that she broke up with me and it was all because of her parents. But I respected that because she should really obey her parents. Well, past is past and I accepted her to come back to me because she’s the only one that could make me happy. And even she didn’t come back to me at that time…….
I’d still wait for her until she comes back to me… because I know no matter what happen, she’s all mine and I’m all hers. This heart of mine belongs to her.
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